Men thing

Bakit kaya may mga taong nagseselos sa’yo kahit wala ka namang ginagawa sa bf/gf/asawa nila?

Isang beses nga minura pa ako nung asawa ng isang lalaking ni hindi ko nga ka-close eh.

Bakit nga naman kasi may mga lalaking naghahanap pa rin ng iba kahit na may asawa or girlfriend na sila?

Dahil ba gusto nilang patunayan ang pagkalalaki nila? Sabi kasi nila, nasusukat ang pagkalalaki sa dami ng naging karelasyon.

Or dahil hindi na sila kontento sa partner nila?

Bakit din gustong-gusto nila kapag nalalaman nilang may gusto ang isang babae sa kanila? Yung tipong huhulihin ka niya malaman lang na crush mo siya. Feeling artista naman!

Sabi nga dib a, “Men are polygamous in nature”.

Kaya masakit man isipin pero kailangan tanggapin na yung boyfriend or asawa mo tumitingin din sa iba. Naghahanap ng atensyon ng iba habang wala ang girlfriend o asawa nila.

As what they say, “The mice play while the cat is away”.

Hanggang kelan ba dapat magtiis? Hanggang kelan ba dapat pahabain ang pasensya? Hanggang kelan ba dapat unawain ang isang tao?

Pero kung makapagsalita sayo, kay lambing, kay amo. Mukhang sincere, mukhang in love na inlove sayo. Syempre si babae naman, magpapakatanga rin maniniwala, aasa. Pero ang totoo, naka-block or naka-filter ka na pala sa fb account niya.

Napakagulo ng usapang love life. Nakakagulo. Nagpapagulo sa iba. Nanggugulo ng iba. Ginugulo ng iba.

Nakakalito. Nakakainis.

Masaya! kahit minsan, alam mong umaasa ka lang at naghihintay.

“I want to feel again that same old feeling with him”

MFRS

Anxieties

Hay lumaki na ata talaga akong malungkutin, mahina ang loob, mahiyain… lahat na…Bata pa ako, di na talaga ako positibo sa buhay ko. Positibo ako pag kaharap ko ibang tao, pag nagbibigay ako ng advice sa mga kaibigan ko, pero pag sa sarili ko na, ewan, wala na, binabalot na ako ng madilim na nakaraan. Ni hindi ko nga talaga alam kung anu ang tunay na nakakapagpasaya sa akin. Ang alam ko lang, natatawa ako sa mga bagay na nakikita kong nakakatawa, nakakatuwa, kakaiba. Pero bihira na lang makakita non ngayon.

Naalala ko nung grade 3 ako. First time ko nun sa 1st section dahil isa akong transferee sa school na yon. Sa sobrang taas ng anxiety ko, umiyak ako dahil nasabihan lang ako na hindi ako dun nakaupo sa upuang kinauupuan ko. sobra ang hikbi ko talaga at todo takip pa ng mukha sa sobrang kahihiyan. Kala ko katapusan na ng mundo ko! Lahat nakatingin sa akin. Yung iba natatawa, yung iba naaawa sa akin. Nakakatawa talaga di ba? Nang dahil lang dun.

Meron kasi akong anxiety sa mga authorities. Takot ako sa mga taong nakakataas sa akin. Tulad na lang nung time na yun na nalipat ako ng 1^st section. Ang tingin ko sa mga kaklase ko, magagaling, high-profile, at ang tingin ko naman sa sarili ko, mababa lang dahil nga nanggaling ako sa lower section. Nasa isip ko rin non na parang di ko kayang makipagkaibigan sa kanila. Buti na lang ay sadyang may mga taong palakaibigan. Kinaibigan nila ako at naramdaman ko noon na hindi pala ako iba sa kanila, na kaya ko ring makipagsabayan sa kanila.

Di rin ako ang klase ng tao na nasasanay agad sa mga bagay na bago. Pag may bago sa paligid ko, tumataas ang anxiety ko. At sa sobrang taas ng anxiety ko, nagkakasakit ako, sumasama ang pakiramdam ko. Tulad na lang nung high school ako. Naalala ko nung first year ako, madaming araw sa buong School Year na absent ako dahil may sakit ako. Pakiramdam ko talaga mahina ako ng mga panahon na yun. Kahit mga grades ko mabababa, hindi rin ako nakikinig sa mga teachers ko. Madalas natutulog ako sa klase. Hindi ako nag-aaral. Pero nung mga panahon ding iyon, naovercome ko naman ang pagiging mahiyain ko. Natuto ako makipagusap sa katabi, magtanong sa kanila ng mga bagay na di ko alam.

Pero ang pinakaayaw ko talaga sa lahat ay pag sinasaktan ako, both emotionally and physically, lalo na pag parents ko na ang involve. sobrang nanghihina ang loob ko sa tuwing nangyayare sa akin yon. Buti na lang malaki na ako ngayon kaya di na nila ako masyado pinapagalitan. Pero syempre, minsan, pag naaalala ko, bumabalik ako sa nakaraan. Parang nararamdaman ko ulit ung mga emosyon na naramdaman ko noon habang pinapagalitan ako o sinasaktan. Naaalimpungatan na lang ako minsan at nasasabi ko na lang sa sarili ko na “Kung ang Diyos nga, kayang magpatawad, ako pa kayang hindi magpapatawad.”. ‘Yun na lang ang iniisip ko para kahit papano makaalis na ako sa nakaraan. Mahirap lang talaga minsan kapag ikaw ang klase ng taong hindi marunong makalimot sa mga bagay na tumatak sayo. Habambuhay mo ng dala-dala ang bagay na yon. Nakakabaliw. Nakakapraning.

 Sa ngayon, tama lang ang timpla ko ngayon. Di masyadong masaya, di rin naman malungkot. Ako pa rin yung tao na di marunong mambato ng jokes, tahimik sa isang tabi, yung taong nakikinig lang sa sinasabi at pinagkukuwentuhan ng mga tao sa paligid. Pero sa bagay na yun, nagiging masaya na ako. Masaya na ako na nalalaman ko kung anong nangyayare sa buhay ng mga kaibigan ko, magulang ko, pamilya ko, mahal ko sa buhay. Minsan nga lang, pag naiisip ko na “May kailangan ba akong sabihin? May kailangan din ba ako ikwento?” Nagsisimula na naman ang anxiety ko. Naiisip ko minsan kung sapat pa ba ako sa kanila. Self-pity na naman. Walang katapusan. Kaya minsan, mag-oopen ako ng isang topic na sobrang seryoso, pero minsan naiisip ko rin na sana di ko na lang din inopen kasi wala namang pumapansin. Alam mo yung kasabihang “You’re so near yet so far”. Ganun kadalasan ang nararamdaman ko. Parang ang layo-layo ko sa kanila dahil hindi ako makasabay sa kanila, dahil di nila ako pinapansin. (Kulang sa pansin eh noh). Ayun, pero masaya pa rin naman ako…para sa kanila.

Siguro ako lang kasi talaga yung klase ng tao na hindi madaling makuntento. Gusto perfect lagi ang nakikita, AT… yung taong naghahanap ng atensyon. (Atenttion seeker? Attention lover?) Watevah! Kaya naiintindihan ko talaga yung mga taong feeling nila nag-iisa sila, yung mga taong pinapakitang masaya sila sa harap ng ibang tao, pero kapag napag-isa, lumulungkot na dahil sa mga anxieties or negative things na nararanasan nila.

Isa ako sa kanila. Taong mukhang masayahin dahil laging nakangiti. Taong akala mo ok lang pag nasasabihan ng “Ganito ka! Isa kang … Wala kang …” , pero kapag tapos ko ng tanggapin at lunukin ang lahat ng sinabi nila, bigla na lang akong pupunta ng CR at luluha o maliligo para kapag tinanong ako, “Umiyak ka ba?” ang sagot ko, “Hindi. Tubig lang yan kasi naligo ako.”

Ako ang taong hindi transparent. Hindi nakikita ng iba kung ano ang tunay na ako. Sabagay lahat naman ng tao may tinatago. Hindi naman lahat ng bagay na tungkol sayo kailangan mong sabihin sa kanila. Hindi rin lahat ng bagay na naiisip mo sa kanila kailangan mong sabihin.

At dahil pinaguusapan natin ay about sa "Anxieties", bigla naman akong napasearch sa internet kung panu ito maoovercome. At ito ang mga best tips na nabasa ko:

12 Tips For Overcoming Anxiety

By Remez Sasson

Anxiety in various forms and degrees seems to be a wide spread problem, affecting people of all ages and in every country.

If you are prone to anxiety you have two options:
A) Give in to it.
B) Learn to overcome it.

By giving in you will continue to suffer and feel unhappy, stressed and anxious. It is far better to learn to overcome anxiety or at least reduce its power.

Anxiety just wastes your time and energy and weakens you mentally and physically. You help no one and don't solve any problem by being anxious. Our planet will go on revolving, even if you stop worrying and being anxious.

Always know you have a choice - to give in to anxiety, or try to overcome anxiety, at least partially.

Here are 12 tips for alleviating and overcoming anxiety:

1. Lack of control over your thoughts strengthens your anxiety. As negative thoughts get stronger and stronger, your anxiety gets stronger. You need to learn to control your thoughts. (OO nga naman)

2. Feelings and emotions fuel and strengthen anxiety. You need to learn some self discipline and control over your feelings, and you also need to develop emotional and mental detachment.

3.When you go to bed at night, and first thing when you wake up in the morning, think about the good things that are happening to you. There are always some good things happening, even if small and insignificant.

4. Start the day with several minutes of positive affirmations. Tell yourself how would like your day to be. Use positive, cheering and motivating words.

5. Be busy, do something. By doing something you keep your mind off your anxiety. When you wake up in the morning start doing something right away, and keep busy all day. Cleaning the house, washing the dishes or working in your garden, reading, studying, meditating or exercising your body can help you keep your mind away from anxiety. Just sitting around and thinking about your problems and worries won't make them go away. (masubukan nga to)

6. Set a goal and work everyday to achieve it. This action will direct your thoughts and feelings away from worries and anxieties, toward something more positive.

7. Talk about your anxieties to someone you trust. Talking about your anxieties and feelings often alleviate them and put them in the right proportions, provided you talk objectively, and with a real desire to reduce or get rid of your anxiety.

8. Exercising is a good way to keep from letting your fears overwhelm you. You can walk, do yoga or aerobics or any other sport. (ang passive ko kasi eh)

9. Find reasons to laugh. This will bring light and happiness into your life and drive anxiety away. Watch comedies, be with happy and amusing friends or read something that makes you laugh.

10. Use positive words in your conversation and in your inner talk.

11. Affirm and visualize positive situations and events. Visualize a happy and positive solution to your problems.

12. If watching the news fills you with anxiety - turn off the TV! Limit the time you watch the news, and don't watch anything that may upset you before you go to bed.

The information in this article does not replace professional advice.

Kung gusto ninyong makita ang original site, kindly visit here

"Throw all your worry on Christ, because He cares for you."(1 Peter 5:7) As many people say that Jesus is the best of all friends. "Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?"(Matt. 6:25).

Friendship fails

Sometimes, it’s just sad that no matter how hard you try to approach them, they keep on ignoring you.  You acquaint with them. You listen to their jokes. You laugh with them. It’s just a sad part for me, I rarely talk to them. I rarely crack jokes and if I did, it’s not always effective. Because I am a serious type of person, I only talk when they got problems, when they need advice. That’s how I want to extend my friendship to them. However, it would turn out that I feel they’ve just left me. I can’t even see they appreciate what I’m doing and what I did for them. I feel I’m alone even if I’m with them. Well, I dunno. I’m just being bitter of everything. I feel I lost them. But, lately, I realized that I don’t need to do what they do. I don’t need to try hard to feel I belong with them. In the end, I’m still their friends. No matter what happens. I’m still the person they used to know since the beginning. I don’t want to change. If I did, then I’ll lose myself. And I will be very afraid if that would happen. As what I believe, you would not know who your true friends are until it’s too late.

Quotes For Girls

All girls are worth loving. All girls worth respect. This one I just found in the internet but I found it very cute.

Happy reading Girls!

• “There’s always a wild side to an innocent face.”

• “I really can’t deny it, I am who I am. I’m pretty normal. I’m not that smooth type of girl. I run into things, I trip, I spill food. I say stupid things… I really don’t have it all together.”

• “Four things a woman should know: How to look like a girl, How to act like a lady, How to think like a man, And how to work like a dog.”

• “Girls want a lot of things from one guy while guys want one thing from a lot of girls.”

• “Here’s to the girls: That keep a smile even though they’re going through hell. That keep their head high, even though they’d rather be elsewhere. That give amazing advice, but can’t seem to follow it themselves. That can make anyone laugh, but herself. Here’s to her.”

• “Just think of me as the Barbie you will never get to play with.”

• “She hates the game, but yet she’s still a player.”

• “I’m not the girl your mom warned you about; her imagination was never this good.”

• “There are only three things in life a girl needs: Love to make her week. Alcohol to make her strong. Best friends when both make her hit the floor.”

• “Good girls are just bad girls who don’t get caught.”

• “A girl should be two things: classy and fabulous.”

Tale of a Woman who Almost Gave up Life but God Saved Her

There is a woman who longs for love. She could not find it anywhere. Even in her house, even from the people around her. She holds that grudge. She hated the world. She hated God. Time comes it becomes worse. She could not hold back anymore, she gave up. She gave herself to the Demon.

She was asked by the Demon to be His Queen. She almost gave in, but, wait she could hear some kind of mumbling beside her. She could hear someone is pleading for her to come back. But, she does not want to come back anymore. Who would want to experience the never ending suffering life is giving to her. But then, like a flash of light, she remembered her young girl who needed her. She remembered her mother whom, though she considered the cause of all her sufferings, she loved so much. And, most of all, she remembered her husband, who through all these years, accepted her whole and now, was praying for her, pleading to God to bring her back.

She changed her mind. She came back to her body and regained all her strengths! She sent away all the demons who wanted to overcome her body. And from that day on, she promised her self that no one, may they be in elemental or any other forms, would ever dare to take her body. Her body is so precious and sacred that it was given to her by God to take good care of.

She was thankful. She was saved through prayers! She thanked God and reconciled with Him. She thanked God for saving her.

From that day on, she became willed to live life. She was one of the inspirations in her community for taking the courage to fight all those devils. Now, she is helping those people being possessed by Demon. Through prayers, she is saving them. And she thanked God by giving her this ‘special gift’ which once she called ‘curse’.

She was the most amazing person I have ever known. She is my mother.

Top 10 things I want when it is summer

It is SOOOoooo SUMMER!!

Can you feel the heat guys? Can feel the sunrays penetrating your skin? We're feeling the same way, girl! But, it's part of the season. What we can do is to do some things to ease the heat.

Here are some of my ideas to quench the heat of summer.

So, here we go!

1. Watermelon - Well, watermelon is always associated with summer. Maybe because of its refreshing taste.

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2. Beach - Yeah baby!! Who would ever resist going to BEACH! It's everyone's satisfaction during summer.

3. Jacuzzi - I really want this at home!!

4. Watch movies in a cinema - It's just so relaxing to watch movies without feeling the summer heat!

5. Stroll in the mall - Yes! IN the mall. Not outside.

6. Summer dresses - It's summer so who would wear sweaters?

7. Fruit Shakes - Yummy!!! Already craving!

8. Eat anything cold - Aside from drinking shakes. Ice cream anyone?

9. Wear those cool eyeglasses - First is to protect my eyes. Second, it's just so summer thing!

10. Stay in the office - I am just glad that I don't have to suffer the summer heat at home, especially when it's afternoon.

It's summer babe. We don't have to suffer it but we could enjoy it in every refreshing thing we can.

mfrs

If I die Young

"If I die young, bury me in satin

Lay me down on a, bed of roses

Sink me in the river, at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song"

- The Band Perry -

Masarap nga kayang mamatay? Naiisip ko palagi kung gaano kahirap mabuhay. Pero bihira lang sumagi sa isip ko kung masarap nga bang mamatay. Nung napanood ko 'tong kantang 'to, naisip ko parang masarap 'pag "nandun ka na", sa lugar kung saan walang paghihirap, walang pagdurusa, lahat masaya, at mapayapa. 

"I've had, just enough time"

Pero, nalulungkot din naman ako 'pag naririnig ko ang kantang ito. Ngayon ko lang narealize kung gaano kaikli ang buhay. 'Ika nga nila, "Live life to the fullest, na parang wala ng bukas." Pero para sa akin, "Live life rightfully so you may be accepted by the Kingdom of God." Napag-isip-isip ko 'yan lately lang. Hindi natin alam kung kelan "Niya" kukunin ang buhay na ipinahiram "Niya" sa atin. Marami dyan namamatay kahit bata pa. Kaya naisip ko na dapat nga siguro baguhin ko na ang ugali kong hindi maganda. Hehe. Marami tayong mga bagay na ginagawa na alam nating mali pero patuloy pa rin nating ginagawa dahil ito ang nakasisiya sa atin. At sa pagdating ng "Judgment Day", 'di na natin alam kung paano itatama ang mga mali natin at huli na para mabago pa natin 'to dahil "andun na tayo". Kaya habang maaga pa at may pagkakataon pa, "let's do the right thing". Hindi naman siguro mahirap 'yun. Kung sakali man siguro na mahirapan tayo sa pagdedesisyon, let's just pray and ask for His guidance. Tiyak, pakikinggan ka Niya at ibibigay Niya ang hinihingi mo. Katulad nga ng lagi kong sinasabi, "May dahilan kung bakit nangyayari 'yan sa'yo." At, naniniwala rin ako na "all prayers are answered, it may be a YES, a NO, and AT THE RIGHT TIME".

"The sharp knife of a short life"

I'm not saying that I'll be in heaven once I died. And, no one really knows what's up there. I just feel like I wanted to be there and I wonder how I will get there. Would it be by an accident, or by a terminal disease, or through murder. But wait, no one's in a hurry, right? It's just sometimes, I want to find my haven, where I could feel I am safe, may this be a person, or a place. However, I just can't find it right now. 

"Funny when you're dead how people start listening"

When I die, would somebody cry? Would somebody visit me? Well, I wouldn't know, and if somebody didn't, well, I'll be the one to visit them. Harhar. Funny it may seem but, sometimes, we realize the worth of a person only when he/she is gone. Isn't it wonderful when you feel you are appreciated? But, some people tend to forget to show even simple gratitude until it's TOO late.

Come lovely and soothing death, undulate round the world, serenely arriving, arriving, In the day, in the night, to all, to each other, sooner or later, delicate death - Walt Whitman




The only way out is the way through, just as you cannot escape from death except by dying. - Howard Nemerov

Why do we Love?

a nice blog to share...


why do we love ba?

so we can have somebody to talk to?

someone who can be there pag gusto natin gumala?

a person na pwedeng manlibre satin?

taong magbibitbit ng gamit mo?
ALALAY for short!eh pano kung di ka nya mahal? would you still love him/her?
would you still continue to care for that person? bakit naman hinde? 
you didnt love that person para magkaroon ka ng alalay,
magkaroon ka ng instant meal dahil libre,
taong gagawa ng assignments mo or projects,
or taong mahihila mo if you want to go out... 

if thats what you think about love well sorry ang BABAW mo!
loving a person doesn't need to have a criteria na dapat maganda o guwapo,
dapat mabait or understanding,
kasi once you fall inlove you take the risk of accepting dat person kahit maingay sya matulog,
yung hilik ng hilik kahit matakaw sya o sobrang fat na hindi kayo kasya pag puno ang jeep!
kahit sobrang moody nya na kulang na lang ay sapakin mo sa inis!
yung sobrang selosa/seloso na pati barkada pinagseselosan..
badtrip diba? and yung napaka-arte OA kung baga! o kahit ano pang things that would turn you off...
hirap tlaga magmahal trying to be PERFECT kase gusto mong magtagal pero hindi yun ang sagot sa lahat... 
ACCEPTING the real person fully kase if you said na mahal mo sya you dont need to find answers kung bakit mo sya mahal...

kase lahat ng tao nagbabago but if you accept that person magbago man sya in the middle of your relationship
hindi ka masasaktan kase you know that darating din yun.. 
tsaka tanggap mo sya ng buo... 
mahirap gawin pero masarap subukan dahil wala ng sasaya pa 
if you let one person feel na MAHAL NA MAHAL mo sya without asking 4 anything in return... 
then you can say wow un pla ang LOVE!

Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect.
It means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections.... 


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Nakakatawa talaga ang love. Isa siyang napakalaking oxymoron.
Lahat ng pwede mong masabi sa kanya, baliktarin mo at totoo pa rin.
Ang labo diba? Pero ang linaw. Masaya magmahal. Malungkot magmahal.
Di monaiintindihan pero naiintindihan mo. Walang rason. Maraming rason.
Di mo na kaya, pero kaya mo pa rin. Masakit magmahal. Pero okey lang.
Sus, ano ba talaga?! May kaibigan ako, sabi niya dati "Love is only for stupid people.
" Nakakatawa kasi laude ang standing niya, pero dumating ang panahon, na-in-love din ang hunghang.
At ayun, tanga na siya ngayon.Lahat kasi ng nahahawakan ng love nagiging oxymoron din.
O kaya paminsan, nagiging moron lang. Hindi lang kasi basta baliktaran ang pag-ibig.
Lahat ng bagay nababaligtad din niya. Lahat ng malalakas na tao,humihina.
Ang mayayabang, nagpapakumbaba. Ang mga walang pakialam, nagiging Mother Teresa.
Ang mga henyo, nauubusan ng sagot. Ang malulungkot, sumasaya.Nakakatawa talaga.
Lalo na kapag dumadating siya sa mga taong ayaw na talaga magmahal. Napansin ko nga eh.
Parang kung gusto mo lang ma-in-love ulit, sabihin mo lang ang magic words na "Ayoko na ma-inlove!" biglang WACHA!
Ayan na siya.Nang-aasar. Magpapaasar ka naman.
Di ba nakakatawa rin na pagdating sa problema ng ibang tao, ang galing galing mo?
Pero 'pag problema mo na yung pinag-uusapan parang nawawalan ng saysay lahat ng ipinayo mo dun sa namomroblemang tao?
Naiisip mong wala namang mali dun sa mga sinabi mo.
Pero bakit parang wala ring tama? Bali-baliktad din ang nasasabi ng mga taong tinamaan ng madugong pana ng pag-ibig.
"Ngayon ko lang nalaman ganito pala. Sabi ko na eh!" "Ang sarap mabuhay. Pwede na 'ko mamatay. Now na!" At hindi lang 'yon.
Ang sarap din pagtawanan ng mga taong alam naman nilang masasaktan lang sila eh magpapatihulog pa rin sa bangin ng pag-ibig.
Tapos 'pag luray-luray na yung puso nila, siyempre hindi sila yung may kasalanan.
Siya! "Bakit niya 'ko sinaktan?" May kasama pang pagsuntok sa pader yon, at pagbabagsak ng pinto.

Hayop talaga. Mauubos ang buong magdamag ko kakasabi ng mga bagay na nakakatawa 'pag pag-ibig na ang pinag-usapan.
Ang daming beses ko na kasi siya nakasalubong kaya masasabi ko nang eksperto na 'ko.
Pero wala pa rin akong alam.

Pero ang pinakanakakatawa sa lahat ay ang katotohanang kapag gusto magpatawa ng pag-ibig,
ipusta na mo na lahat ng ari-arian mo dahil siguradong ikaw ang punchline.

Nakakatawa no?Nakakaiyak.

"The best use of LIFE is LOVE.The best expressions of Love is TIME.The best time to Love is NOW..."


So ako na ang taong hindi marunong magmahal.. haha.. kaya nga I need space di ba.. I need to understand more my self... this is enough to say na I am doing the RIGHT THING!

History of the Holy Rosary

Alam nyo ba kung paano nagsimula ang pagdarasal ng "Holy Rosary"? Ito ang maikling buod nito:

Ang Kasaysayan ng Santo Rosaryo

Isinulat ni San Louis Marie De Montfort 

Walang alinlangang masasabi na ang Rosaryo ang una at pinakamahalagang panalangin dahil binubuo ito ng Ama Namin, ang dasal ni Kristo, ng Aba Ginoong Maria, ang dasal ng pagbati ni Arkanghel Gabriel at iba pang karaniwang panalangin. Nagsimula ang pagdarasal ng Rosaryo noong panahon ng mga apostoles at ito ay dinarasal sa kasalakuyan.

Ang Rosaryo ay ibinigay sa simbahan ni San Dominic. Ito ay tinanggap niya sa Mahal na Birhen para sa pagbabalik-loob ng mga Albegensians at ng iba pang mga makasalanan. Nakita ni San Dominic na magiging lubhang mahirap ang mapabalik-loob ang mga Albegensians dahil sa mga napakabigat na kasalanan nila kaya inisip niyang magtungo sa kagubatan. Nagdasal siya rito ng tatlong araw at tatlong gabi nang walang tigil. Nagsakripisyo at tumangis siya upang mawala ang galit ng Panginoon. Dahil sa labis na pagpaparusa sa sarili, si San Dominic ay nagkasugat-sugat at nawalan ng malay. Sa oras na ito nagpakita si Birheng Maria na  may kasamang tatlong anghel.

"Mahal kong Dominic, alam mo ba kung anong armas ang ibig ng Banal na Trinidad na gamitin para sa pagbabago ng mga tao sa daigdig?"

 Sumagot si Dominic,

"Mahal na Birhen, mas alam ninyo ito kaysa sa akin dahil pumapangalawa kayo kay Hesukristo sa pagiging instrumento ng aming kaligtasan."

Ang Mahal na Birhen ay nagwika,

 "Ibig kong malaman mo  na sa ganitong digmaan, ang pinakamahalagang armas ay ang aking mga salmo na siyang bato ng Bagong Tipan; kaya kung ibig mong maabot ang mga tumigas nang kaluluwa at maipabalik-loob mo sila sa Diyos, ipangaral mo ang aking mga salmo."

Kapagdako'y tumayo si San Dominic na nasisiyahan at nagtungo sa katedral. Pinatunog ng mga anghel ang mga kampana upang tipunin ang mga tao. Si San Dominic ay nagsimulang mangaral. Bahagya pa lamang siyang nakapagsesermon nang magdilim ang araw. Sinundan ito ng bagyo at lindol na labis na ikinatakot ng mga tao. Lalo silang natakot nang makita nilang gumalaw ang larawan ni Maria na inilantad ni San Dominic. Tumingin ang Birhen sa langit at itinaas ang mga kamay nang tatlong beses upang manawagan sa Diyos sa pagbibigay ng kanyang parusa sa mga makasalanan kung sila ay hindi magbabalik-loob at hihiling ng kalinga sa Ina ng Diyos. Ninais ng Diyos sa pamamagitan ng mga di-pangkaraniwang pangyayaring ito, na lumaganap ang debosyon sa Santo Rosaryo sa buong mundo.

Pinagpatuloy ni San Dominic ang kanyang pangaral nang tumigil ang bagyo sa kanyang pagdarasal. Dahil sa napakahusay na pagpapaliwanag niya sa kahalagahan ng Rosaryo, halos lahat ng tao sa Toulose ay malugod na tinanggap ito at tinalikuran ang kanilang mga maling paniniwala. Tinalikuran din nila ang masasamang bisyo. Nagsimulang mamuhay sila bilang mabuting Kristiyano.

Dahil sa pagbibigay-sigla ng Espiritu-Santo, ng atas ng Mahal na Birhen at ng sariling karanasan sa pagsesermon, napalaganap ni San Dominic ang pagdarasal ng Santo Rosaryo hanggang sa huling sandali ng kaniyang buhay. Nangaral siya sa matataas at hamak na tao, sa mga iskolar at mangmang at sa mga Katoliko at erehe. Dinarasal noon ni San Dominic ang Rosaryo araw-araw bilang paghahanda na rin sa bawat sermon niya.

Ang Mahal na Birhen ay sumunod na nagpakita kay San Dominic sa isang kapilya sa Notre Dame, sa Paris habang dinarasal niya ang Rosaryo bilang paghahanda sa kanyang pagsesermon. Nagkataong pista noon ni San Juan na isa sa mga mangangaral ng ebanghelyo.

"Dominic, ang inihanda mong sermon ay maaaring mahusay, ngunit may dala ako na nasa aklat na mas mahusay kaysa sa iyong sermon," wika ng Mahal na Birhen.

Kinuha ni San Dominic ang aklat ng Mahal na Birhen, binasa nang mabuti at pagkatapos na mapagnilayan ito, nagpasalamat siya sa Mahal na Birhen.

Nang dumating ang oras ng pagsesermon, humarap si San Dominic sa kongregasyon na binubuo ng matataas na tao kaya naman sanay sila sa pakikinig ng mga sermong pambihira. Kasalungat ang ginawang pagsesermon ni San Dominic na ipaliwanag niya sa mga tagapakinig. Nangaral siya sa paraang madaling intindihin sa tulong ng Espiritu Santo. Ipinaliwanag niya ang Rosaryo na parang ang kaharap niya ay mga bata. Ginamit niya ang mga larawang guhit na nasa aklat na ibinigay ng Mahal na Birhen.

Sa isang pagkakataon, nagpakita si Hesus at ang Mahal na Birhen kay San Dominic upang siya'y himukin at bigyang sigla sa malawakang pagpapalaganap niya ng Rosaryo upang masugpo ang kasalanan at mapabalik-loob ang mga makasalanan at mapasampalataya ang mga di naniniwala sa Diyos.

"Dominic, nasisiyahan ako dahil hindi ka umaasa sa sarili mong karunungan at hindi mo inaasahan na purihin ka ng mga tao. Dakila ang kababaang loob mo sa paggawa para sa kaligtasan ng mga kaluluwa. Maraming alagad ng Diyos ang nagsisimulang mangaral tungkol sa kabigatan ng kasalanan. Dapat ay ihanda muna ang makasalanan sa pagkakaroon sa puso ng pag-ibig sa pagdarasal lalung-lalo na sa pagdarasal ng aking mga salmo, ang Diyos Ama ay hindi makatatanggi na magbigay ng kanyang grasya, kaya ibig kong mangaral ka sa pagdarasal ng Rosaryo, " wika ni Hesus.

Ang rosaryo ay mga katawagan nang Salmo ni Hesus at Maria noon pa mang panahon ni San Dominic dahil ang bilang ng Aba Ginoong Maria at salmo sa Aklat ng mga Salmo ni David at sa Rosaryo ay magkatulad. Ang mga walang pinag-aralan ay hindi makababasa ng mga salmo ni David kaya ang Rosaryo ang inihahalili para sa kanila.

Pinagtibay ng Mahal na Birhen ang pangalang Rosaryo sa dasal na ito. Ipinaalam niya sa ilang tao na tuwing darasalin nila ang isang Aba Ginoong Maria, binibigyan nila ang Birheng Maria ng isang magandang rosas. Ang katumbas naman ng pagdarasal ng isang dekada ng Rosaryo ay isang maliit na korona ng mga rosas, at ng buong Rosaryo, malaking korona ng mga rosas na inilalagay natin sa ulo nina Hesus at Maria.

(kuha sa librong Ang Bagong Rosaryo kasama ang Misteryo ng Liwanag)

Sa pamamagitan ng history ng Holy Rosary, mas lalo nating napatunayan kung gaano ka-powerful si Mama Mary sa buhay natin. Napakainteresting malaman kung paano nagsimula ang mga tao sa pagdarasal ng Rosaryo. Marami sa atin ngayon ang tumatalikod na sa Panginoon dahil sa mga problemang dumarating sa buhay nila. Pero kung magbabalik-loob lamang sila, sa tulong ni Mama Mary, siguradong gagaan ang problema nila at mabibigyan sila ng grasya. 

Sa pamamagitan nitong isinulat kong ito, sana MARAMI na ang magbalik-loob sa Kanya. Huwag sana tayong mawalan ng pag-asa sa pagdarasal ng Rosaryo. Sana rin maging instrumento rin tayo para ipaalam sa iba. Wala namang mawawala di ba kung sasabihin natin sa bawat kakilala natin kung gaano kahalaga ang mga bagay na tulad nito. Isipin na lang natin ang buhay na walang hanggan na ipagkakaloob ng Diyos sa atin sa pagdating ng Tamang Panahon. Ang katawang tao, namamatay, nabubulok, pero ang kaluluwa natin ay nananatili. No one knows kung hanggang kelan ang buhay natin, kaya dapat ngayon pa lang, inihahanda na natin ang sarili natin.

mfrs

Heart Aches

It is January 8 already and I don't have any updates in my blog. I don't have energy do this stuff because my HEART ACHES now.

I broke up with my boyfriend because of some reasons that I think few, including him, would not understand.

*I'm TIRED of him! I just can't understand why do I need to be the guy between us. Why can't he provide for me? I know he doesn't have work now, but, I'm very tired to spend money for him. Just ME spending money for him. He doesn't know the feeling because HE IS NOT in MY SHOE. I really don't know why he can't understand my point that we needed to establish ourselves first before we establish US.

*I'm SCARED for our future. If he can't provide for me now, how much more in the future? Can he be the husband who would provide for his family? Can he be a good father to my children? Can he protect us from dangers that would surround us? Can I totally be happy with him for all the things he'd been doing to me? I don't know. I'm just scared to  give my whole life to him because

*I DON'T TRUST him.

*I think he would be just LIKE MY FATHER who is being irresponsible now. I can see many of their similarities. I'm really afraid to be like my mom who stands as our sole parent although my dad is there. He never supports us. When he did, he would just give my mom a little amount of money, and he never shows his payslip to my mom. I don't want to be like them who always quarrel when they speak of money. I don't want to be like my family today who don't care to each other anymore because we don't have a father who must be the one to guide and discipline us.

*I'm SO SICK OF THIS! I am dreaming of a happy family who love and respect each other. But, I don't want to stay it a DREAM 'cause I believe that DREAMS still come TRUE. If you really WANTED it to happen, it WILL. Just do what is right, and plan ahead. Be futuristic. Learn your goals.

*And that's what I am doing right now. I hope he would understand me when the right time comes.

That's for now!!

mfrs

The tree, the leaf and the wind

Do you want to read a beautiful story about loving someone, letting go, and moving on?

I would like to share you a story entitled Tree, Leaf and Wind (just go to this link if you want to see the original site).

Tree, Leaf and Wind

Tree

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The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.

I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years.

She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know whose the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.

I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.

During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

Leaf

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During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a mth, he got together with another gal.

I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?

Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years.

Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay

Wind

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Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.

Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away

It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.

Disclaimer: lovefatedestiny.com

Just a share!

mfrs

SPACE

"Hindi pa ako RN, pero acting nurse na ako sa lola ko." - from my plurk account 1/04/10

Yeah right! Napag-isip-isip ko na hindi ko naman talaga kelangan maging Registered Nurse para maging isang nurse. Meron ngang iba dyan RN na pero sa ibang propesyon umaasenso. Naisip ko lang naman kasi medyo nadedepress na rin ako dahil hindi pa ako nakakapagboard dahil sa hinayupak na birth certificate na yan. Pero, nararamdaman ko namang maaayos pero hindi pa siguro soonest. Maybe, it will take months or years? Hehe. I don't know. But, I am thinking na maghanap na ng ibang work. Nakakapagod kaya tumambay, 'di ba 'di ba? Lalo namang nakakapagod kapag wala kang pera.

HELPING HANDS!!

Helping Hands... Ano nga ba ang ibig sabihin nito?

Kahapon, pumunta kami ng lola ko sa Alabang Medical Center para magpatingin sa doktor. Ako lang mag-isa noon dahil lahat sila nasa eskwelahan. Alam ko namang kaya ko, ang laki-laki ko na eh. Nagtawag ako ng taxi pero syempre, kelangan choosy ako. Ayoko ng nangongontrata. Dapat metro, pero dahil sa mga panahong ito napakakonti na ng mga driver na nagpapametro, pumayag na ako sa kontrata pero dapat 150 pesos lang. Syempre, sila naman yung ayaw pumayag kesyo nakapila and whatsoever. Eh, syempre mas lalo namang ayaw kong pumayag, 250 pesos ba naman, 200 pesos huling tawad, parang sa Divisoria lang ah, eh napakalapit nga lang nun. Kung ako lang, magjejeep lang ako eh, kinse pesos lang. Ayun buti na lang me pumayag sa presyo ko. Grabe hirap makipagtawaran. Daig pa mga nagtitindang intsik sa Divisoria. Pero buti na lang si manong, talagang nagvolunteer siya. Tapos sabi ko, "Manong, may susunduin tayo.". Iniwan ko lang kasi yung lola ko sa may kanto kasi ayoko ng tumawid siya. Sinundo ko na yung lola ko, nagulat ako wala yung taxi. Yun pala pinaurong lang konti nung traffic enforcer. Pero nung nakita niya kaming dalawa nung lola ko, inalalayan nya agad kami. Syempre medyo natouch naman ako dun. Tapos yung driver, binuksan nya pa yung pinto para sa amin. Wow. Special treatment nga naman talaga. Tapos nagtanong pa yung traffic enforcer, "Saan kayo pupunta? Magpapadoktor kayo?". Syempre sabi ko, "Opo. Sa Alabang Med po.". Ang bait mo manang! Hehe.

Habang umaandar yung taxi, napapansin ko na parang nagmamadali si manong driver. Hindi ko lang alam kung dahil ba sa tumatakbo yung metro nya, dahil alam kong dapat may tubo sya dun o, in a positive sight, nag-aalala siya para sa amin dahil kelangan ng madala si Mommylo sa ospital. Syempre, pilingera ako eh. Hehe. Pagdating ng ospital, Syempre, una akong bumaba, bumaba din si manong driver para alalayan ang lola ko. Wow. Touch na naman ako. para kaming mga donya na may sasakyan at pesonal driver. Pilingera ulit! Haha. Syempre, medyo nilakihan ko yung tip ko sa kanya. Dinagdagan ko ng bente, yung 150 pesos, naging 170 pesos, tapos binati ko pa siya ng, "Happy New Year!". Gaya-gaya ako sa magulang ko eh. Hehe. Tapos, may isang mama sa loob na tumakbo at sinaklolohan agad kami. Nagdala agad siya ng wheelchair at idineretso kami sa Emergency Room. Wow. Super Thanks talaga!! Sa loob, may mga nursing students na nag-assist din sa amin. Syempre, naalala ko yung mga panahong estudyante pa ako. Lagi silang nagtatanong, kung anung history ni Mommylo, Kung anu kinain niya bakit siya nagsusuka, ilang beses siya nagsuka. Todo assist din sila. Sila pa humawak nung plastik na sinusukahan ng lola ko. Haha. parang ako lang nung estudyante pa ako. Maya-maya, dumating na yung nurse. Siya naman yung nag-interview sa amin. Syempre, sinabi ko naman na nagsusuka nga siya, pero dapat talaga magpapa-check-up kami para sa puso niya. Ni-refer na lang muna kami sa gastro para nga sa suka niya. Maya-maya dumating na yung doktor. Yung itsura niya talagang nag-aalala siya. Tinanong niya kasi kung anu-anong gamot daw ang iniinom ng lola ko. Inisa-isa ko at ang sabi niya, talagang sasakit ang sikmura ng lola ko dahil matatapang na gamot daw yung mga yun. Kelangan daw palitan ng iba, at yung iba naman ititigil na. Syempre, natuwa din ako dahil halatang concern siya sa amin pero ganun naman talaga dapat mga doktor di ba? Pilingera nga kasi ako eh. Hehe. After nun, Nag-order na siya ng mga laboratories na gagawin sa amin like yung CBC, Upper Abdomen Ultrasound and ECG. Pagdating sa Lab, naghihintay kami sa labas nang tinawag ng isang babae yung pangalan ng lola ko, syempre taas agad ako ng kamay. "Present mam!" Eh wala yung utility kaya ako sana yung tutulak ng wheelchair, pero kinuha nya sa akin yung wheel chair. Natuwa na naman ako dahil tingin, ko napakabait nung babae. Kaso, sa bigat ng lola ko, di nya maipasok sa loob ung wheel chair kaya tinulungan naman siya nung isang babae sa loob. Siya pala yung radiologist na mag-uultrasound sa lola ko. Pagkatapos maultrasound, sa ECG naman si Mommylo. Mabait din yung nag-assist sa amin. Inalalayan niya si Mommylo hanggang sa makahiga siya at makatayo after nung process. Hinatid pa nila kami sa ER. 

Ewan ko ba. Tingin ko talaga sa lahat ng tao, mababait. Pati yung nurse namin, before I forgot to mention, napakabait din. Talagang tinatanong niya pa kami kung nagugutom ba kami, kung ok lang ba kami, kung san namin gustong mahiga na kama, etc. Tingin ko sa kanila they are angels sent from above. Sana lahat ng tao ganun. Hehe.

Helping Hands. Sa mga taong nabanggit ko kanina, sila yung nagpakita sa amin ng Helping Hands. Mula sa simpleng pag-alalay nila, hanggang sa pagtutulak ng wheelchair, sobrang nakakatouch talaga! At narealize ko na hindi rin pala masama na naging "pilingera" ako. It just shows that I appreciated all their simple efforts, smile and kind gestures to us. At isa pa, narealize ko din na dapat maging ganon din ako, katulad nila. Hindi kasi ako palatulong eh, hehe. Lagi kasi ako nag-aalinlangan. Ewan ko ba. Di ko alam kung mahiyain ako or whatever. Pero, I just realized na nakakataba pala ng puso 'pag may mga bagay na ginagawa sayo na hindi mo inaasahan.

"Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does." ~ William James

Maging pilingera ka daw ulit. Haha. Pero di mo alam na sa pagiging pilingera mo, madame kang nagagawang mga bagay na akala mo wala lang sayo, pero may kahulugan sa buhay ng ibang tao. 

Marame akong natutunan sa araw na ito, at tulad nga ng sabi ko, araw-araw dapat may mga lessons akong natutunan, at eto na ang simula para sa taong 2011, year of the rabbit! 

"We can do no great things, only small things with great love."  ~Mother Teresa

Hanggang sa muli!

mfrs