"If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song"
- The Band Perry -
Masarap nga kayang mamatay? Naiisip ko palagi kung gaano kahirap mabuhay. Pero bihira lang sumagi sa isip ko kung masarap nga bang mamatay. Nung napanood ko 'tong kantang 'to, naisip ko parang masarap 'pag "nandun ka na", sa lugar kung saan walang paghihirap, walang pagdurusa, lahat masaya, at mapayapa.
"I've had, just enough time"
Pero, nalulungkot din naman ako 'pag naririnig ko ang kantang ito. Ngayon ko lang narealize kung gaano kaikli ang buhay. 'Ika nga nila, "Live life to the fullest, na parang wala ng bukas." Pero para sa akin, "Live life rightfully so you may be accepted by the Kingdom of God." Napag-isip-isip ko 'yan lately lang. Hindi natin alam kung kelan "Niya" kukunin ang buhay na ipinahiram "Niya" sa atin. Marami dyan namamatay kahit bata pa. Kaya naisip ko na dapat nga siguro baguhin ko na ang ugali kong hindi maganda. Hehe. Marami tayong mga bagay na ginagawa na alam nating mali pero patuloy pa rin nating ginagawa dahil ito ang nakasisiya sa atin. At sa pagdating ng "Judgment Day", 'di na natin alam kung paano itatama ang mga mali natin at huli na para mabago pa natin 'to dahil "andun na tayo". Kaya habang maaga pa at may pagkakataon pa, "let's do the right thing". Hindi naman siguro mahirap 'yun. Kung sakali man siguro na mahirapan tayo sa pagdedesisyon, let's just pray and ask for His guidance. Tiyak, pakikinggan ka Niya at ibibigay Niya ang hinihingi mo. Katulad nga ng lagi kong sinasabi, "May dahilan kung bakit nangyayari 'yan sa'yo." At, naniniwala rin ako na "all prayers are answered, it may be a YES, a NO, and AT THE RIGHT TIME".
"The sharp knife of a short life"
I'm not saying that I'll be in heaven once I died. And, no one really knows what's up there. I just feel like I wanted to be there and I wonder how I will get there. Would it be by an accident, or by a terminal disease, or through murder. But wait, no one's in a hurry, right? It's just sometimes, I want to find my haven, where I could feel I am safe, may this be a person, or a place. However, I just can't find it right now.
"Funny when you're dead how people start listening"
When I die, would somebody cry? Would somebody visit me? Well, I wouldn't know, and if somebody didn't, well, I'll be the one to visit them. Harhar. Funny it may seem but, sometimes, we realize the worth of a person only when he/she is gone. Isn't it wonderful when you feel you are appreciated? But, some people tend to forget to show even simple gratitude until it's TOO late.
The only way out is the way through, just as you cannot escape from death except by dying. - Howard Nemerov
