What do I wish for Christmas??

One day to go and it's Christmas and what do I wish for??

Is it gifts?

Is it new shoes, new bags, new clothes, techies?

Is it a new job?

Is it new love life?

Is it bunch of money?

Is it wealth for my family?

Is it new friends?

What??????!!!!

As I am writing this blog, I realized that I really don't need much of material things. It would really be nice if I will receive those but the happiness I feel will just be temporary. There are still some things that I wanted to look for. To be honest, sometimes I feel empty and lonely even though they are there for me, my family, friends, and boyfriend. I feel there are some points that is lacking in me. Suddenly, I wonder, "Was it just my perspective that makes me feel I am sad?". "Am I just being negative about certain things that is happening to me, or  just too sensitive about what people say or do to me?" "Am I becoming paranoid, thinking that they don't like me, that I don't belong to them, or that I am just a trying hard to be inside their circle."

Poof!! Realization came out to my mind! Perhaps this was all happening to me because I am always thinking that I don't need other people to live in this world. I've always thought that since I was a kid because I didn't want to let others hurt me. But, I've realized now that it was a wrong thinking. I need others because they will be the one to appreciate me, to love me,  to make me feel that I belong in this world. Just like what they are saying, "man is a social being". Thanks for the person who said that! You don't know how you made me realize that I am a social being, too. I am living in this world for others to be part of my life and for me to be part of their lives too. It was a mutual relationship between "me" and "them".

I wish CONTENTMENT AND HAPPINESS for this Christmas. I wish for a better ME by learning to ACCEPT pains and challenges in life. I wish for a POSITIVE PERSPECTIVE IN LIFE. I wish more people will come to my life to make me realize I'm worth living in this world!

Merry Christmas to all of you!!

PAALAM!

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